Think ten years ago.
Ten years ago I was working in a big hotel handling huge operations. I hang out with different people, I had different sets of priority, I was drawn to many things that are so much different than the things I’m into right now, my father just died and none of my kids finished college yet and yes, I was in perfect shape.
It was such a big, busy world but everything changed already. In such a short time.
Your story is different than mine but you will certainly agree that ten years can indeed bring a lot of changes. And yet, 10 years is actually so short!
Ten years can change your health and the same amount of years can make you more money or lose money. Jump from one job to another or reside in different worlds.
Ten years can change your relationship status in a big way. You could be spending your time with the same person perhaps but your lives must have changed with the new family.
Or you could be jumping from one relationship to the other still or you could be just settling down with the right person finally. Or you could be crying still with the many failed ones and still wondering why somebody dropped you on your weakest and lowest point. As far as relationships are concerned, things can easily change even in a day without any explanation. And ten years???
Life is like a big train. You are inside that moving train. It will just move forward and you can’t stop or go out. To stop means to die or to settle for less. As it moves strongly forward, everybody in the train have their own different agenda. They don’t care about yours. They can pretend but no, not really.
Just think about being in a messy traffic. Nobody gives a shit about how tired or how sick you are or how hard your day was. Everybody just want to be a step or two ahead of you.
Back to the train.
The person you have in the train may stick it out with you for you to enjoy or suffer the journey with him. It will help that you undertand to be your best even in your lonesome because life is going to kick your butt no matter what.
Earth is not yet a paradise.The universe won’t stop either to listen to your problems and it won’t understand your weaknesses too. Again, nobody gives a shit.
Sometimes the very person or persons you count on are the same persons who will let you down. They will grow tired of you and you of them. They will not hold you anymore and they will lie and will let you drift away. Again, each one with his own agenda.
You are always expected to stand and fight for what you want or what you believe is yours. Nothing comes for free. Somebody invested his time and effort for you to enjoy what you feel you deserved but its never free. You too have to pay for it with your own efforts or resources one way or the other. That’s just the way it is.
If you find yourself weak then you found your true enemy…and that is yourself.
Who told you it’s okay to be weak? You can fumblle, you can fall but you can’t remain fumbling and falling. Stand up and don’t wait for signs in your life and the promise to be better. The stars in the galaxy won’t align to fulfill your stupid wishes. Goals and actions do and then the fruit of your effort is delivered in front of you. And then you can smile… even in pain.
In general, as far as improving your health, finance and your relationship, the ball is always in your freaking hands.
Stop blaming other people as that, too, is being weak. Those who betrayed you will have a rougher time in the train and you don’t have to worry shit about them. Whatever you sow, you reap. That’s a universal law. And that remained true for as long as the world existed.
The train is going to move forward and you have to find out yourself if that direction is where your heart really is or sending you away from it. If it’s sending you away, tough luck then. The decisions you did in the past bring you to where you are right now. You need help. We all do.
So who’s holding your hands now? Who’s holding your hands in your finances? Your health? Who is guiding you?
Even in a case of people with separate agendas, we will still end up with a person we believe will stick it out with us. If you find that, you have to thank the Lord every time you see that person because that person will change your life.
So who’s holding your heart? Who’s holding your future? I hope you find yourself standing, always ready, always prepared even in the face of betrayal.
Most people in our lives are like the wind. They blow in many different directions. They come, they disappear as much as you have probably disappeared in someone else’s life. don’t count on them all the time. Choose the persons you’d spend your time with.
For people who matters to you, they will always look out for your hands. And the one to hold your own hands?
Tell me because that too, is your choice.